<3 happy bdayy~ V.

Today is your special day~Turning 16 :D your getting old, but i'll still love you.

lots of love. xoxo

T.

My past on memory lane.

I hate ranting, but i’ll do it anyways. Okay~i hate it when i’m sick at home during school days and i had to go through many convos.this times. 3 .stupid convos in a fricking row! No, not about “get well” or “please take care” or “why weren’t u at school.” But it was about, getting someones phone number after already asking it like 3 times already. two; raging at me for not going to school and how ‘this’ person didn’t miss me and how i just wanted to skip the test. (yesh , jap test.) and three; my close friend of mine (guy) randomly tells me that ‘this girl in my horrible past’ is now his wifey~ this all happened in 10 minutes. FML

Sigh~ i’m not usually like this, cause if i tell anyone…things get out and they don’t listen or care cause they’re too busy with something else. They’d rather keep talking and try to pretend not see ’a girl in particular’ crying her heart out. Yes.That ‘girl’ was me. The ‘strong-funny-brave-confident-carefree-bubbly-clumsy’ tiffy was indeed crying. I really am dealing with…….problems. Girls hating me, rumors….why can’t people just open their eyes and just..see the person i am.not just judge of what other hear and even though all of this is in my past and…will be my future, i can’t stop thinking about it.remembering it.replaying it. No one will ever be able to help me over come these stupid memories….

I thought,joining youth would help me...make friends and be confident. It's not happening anymore cause my 'best guy' friends wifey is now there! Yes, she asked me to go get her more friends to know, i did. It wasn't enough. She told me to go find more. FYI ,I aint your slave~ I hate to pretend i killer LIKE you. but seeing you brings out my past. the past you were apart of , that slowly killed me......very...slowly.

cbf to finished.

i really hate it when i type all my problems for everyone to see, but i can’t just help wonder why….my fingers can’t stop typing.

I wonder why i’m even posting this.ty for even reading apart of my ‘not so magical’ fariytale.

xoxo

Sick :(

I'm currently suffering from a Viral Infection. Just great ... and i have a jap test tomorrow and i hope i don't go.  But i didn go to school the day of the half yearly maths test and was so dizzy and tired. I didn't study for it and i wasn't strugling heaps...but i hope i pass. (higly unlikely)

Well, i spent the whole day at home. Enjoyed it, even though i had to go to the doctors because of my ear started to hurt. Pretty much all i did was ;

1. see doctors
2. eat & drink
3. watch gossip girl
4. study for 2 minutes and fall asleep
5. fb.
6. sit in front of the comp

Did i forget to mention seeing the doctors? :s

On the other hand, i really wanted to go to school.

1. I get to finish on my ring , that i made in jewelry class
2. i get to see my friends
3. &go to sport. (aka badminton. comp)

Funny thing is , my friend told me on msn that no one turned up at badminton~ Like....our school was the only school that turned up. Chances were either that "WE went to wrong place" or "the other 3 schools wen to the wrong place"

I guess we were kicked out of the semi finals.   :( and i was SOO looking forward to it.

ohwells.

(arghh..getting dizzy) I'm gonna stop blogging now =.=

i hate depression

i have no idea why i've been depressed for the past few days but i feel...much better now. Crying my heart out to a good friend is very important and it helps alot, but chocolate works just as good....

It was raining all day and i guess the weather got to me pretty badly. Playing sport also helps. My last badminton match for the meanwhile unless i get into the top 2 & compete in semi finals. todays match was pretty fun, probably the best since i've never laughed so hard before. Our rivals fell a couple times and i don't know..they started laughing their asses off....who knew happiness/stupidness was contagious.

I also miss 'him' alot. He didn't come to sport today cause he had work experience so....no msn,phone calls etc. which probably led to my depression too but i'm all good :D 2 more days.....i can't wait. His birthday is coming soon and i have everything planned out ;) well..i hope he doens't read my blog cause...it would ruin it...but....i'm making a ring for him at school. Not those plastic/grass rings..i seriously...mean..a silver ring. I hope it won't freak him out...but...his cuz said he would be...extreamlyy happy!!! :p  i hope i get it made on time.

anyways....i wish....that...we last....cause...i don't want to be heartbroken...., i doubt it though. My friends keep telling me...high school relationships never last till the end...but...i'm gonna prove her wrong.

1st badminton match of the term

First match of the term~ and it just had to be the toughest school to start with. One of  the A girls were away~ so they put me in her spot, man...i SO wasn't already. There's a MASSIVE gap between matches A & B , so i guess i knew i was gonna lose.

I also injured myself a few weeks ago and it hasn't healed to it's fullest so i didn't bother trying. Last sunday when my mum told me to put alittle more effort , i counld't even play for 10 minutes cause it started to hurt THAT bad. Therefore we lost, 12-21~ atleast we got over ten.  ;)

But even though we lost kinda badly, i am pretty happy. The experience is worth it :) even though half the time i was freaking out.